Why did I quit my job now, during this recession?
I have a B.S. in Applied Physics from UC Davis with good research credentials. I decided to forego graduate education, which was a misstep that I will likely correct in the future. The job market stinks, and after unsuccessful attempts to even find something I was even qualified for and a series of unsuccessful interviews, I landed a high-tech sales job.
The product was printed circuit boards, those green Sim-City look-alikes populating all of your electronic devices. Naturally, I was concerned about a few things when I took the job, but my interviewer did her best to assuage my doubts.
But then…
Don’t give me my salary, tell me about my pay on a per-hour basis assuming a standard forty-hour workweek and then have me sign a document on the first day informing me to expect fifty hours per week. That is a twenty-five percent pay decrease.
Two people quit during the first week. Your hiring decisions were poor. But of course, you expected people to quit during the first week, which is why you hired more than you needed.
What do you do when the long-promised long list of ‘warm leads’ is actually a list of people who registered on our website ten years ago and have since disappeared? Cold call them! No amount of side-stepping was able to convince any of my teammates that we were not telemarketers for engineers.
Speaking of telemarketing, everyone knows the term ‘call-center’. When you are trying as hard as possible as a manager to convince your team of telemarketers that they are not in fact telemarketers, take care not to refer to their workspace as the ‘call-center’, even if it is just an internal term.
Speaking of telemarketing, don’t deride the ideas of scripts and then ask us to write our own scripts.
If you want to teach me to sell, do not make me feel like a manipulator. Do not use words like ‘rapport’ to mean ‘friends who buy my wares’; do not make me feel like the prowler at the bar looking for an evening’s fuck armed with false pretense and friendly idle chatter about the local weather report.
Don’t bash other businesses for borderline unethical practices when your own principles are nothing to envy. When I am learning of new DBAs on a daily basis and shocking the management by my keen research abilities to type a few words in Google and find my answers something is amiss.
Do not hide the fact that you have a false competitor in a building next door that offers identical services for slightly lower prices.
Do not hide the fact that you have several operations throughout the country and internationally that operate under the front of independent manufacturing houses when they really just send all their work to us.
Do not call brokers, also known as middlemen, the ’sluts of the industry’ and then reveal that we in fact own a few brokerage houses in a different part of the country.
Do not bash shops that work with overseas vendors when the reality is that you in fact offer overseas pricing to the cheapest customers. By the way, how much of your ‘in-house’ work is actually manufactured across the ocean?
Speaking of out-sourcing, don’t teach us to sell ‘in-house processes’ that we in fact out-source. Don’t take me to the assembly shop and not address the haunted gloom that falls over the group when a factory full of young Vietnamese women armed with soldering guns sit silently in what seems to be a local sweatshop. Don’t tell us it is in fact the smallest one we use and brag about the size of the other two.
Do not hide the fact that your president is a ruthless person hated by many in the industry. Your non-sales employees filled me in on the fact. Do not hide that frivolous lawsuit filed against a new business headed by a former employee a couple years back. Even if you were right in filing it, it feels like justice from the divine that you lost.
Don’t pump me full of half-truths about integrity and let me hear other employees and managers praising the heavens for the success of their lies.
Today is the day – I will be married by 6 PM this evening. It is surreal to think that this is happening within twenty-four hours. It was three weeks ago that I realized that the wedding was in three weeks. From six months ago until then I upheld my belief that it was in six months. Now the planning is almost through – it never ends until we drive away from the reception! After the wedding, the honeymoon, and finally the marital bliss should start setting in soon. 
I finally finished this book, my first by Barth – it took me months to read this short (155 pages) series of lectures delivered to a group of dedicated students at Kurfürsten Schloss in Bonn in 1959. Despite the fact that each section is at most about five pages, Barth is deceptively easy to read and thus I spent a great deal of time poring over what had been transcribed in each lecture. He seemingly wastes no words, hardly repeats himself and is almost never recorded delivering anything but the highest level of discourse. Many do not write as clearly as Barth spoke extemporaneously.
“Whenever the devil harasses you, seek the company of men or drink more, or joke and talk nonsense, or do some other merry thing. Sometimes we must drink more, sport, recreate ourselves, and even sin a little to spite the devil, so that we leave him no place for troubling our consciences with trifles. We are conquered if we try too conscientiously not to sin at all. So when the devil says to you: do not drink, answer him: I will drink, and right freely, just because you tell me not to.” -Martin Luther


“There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain in constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape. But even after admitting this there is no catharsis.